While playing a sunday milli sat I was surfing through the pokerblogs of the planet and was once again astonished how few of them are actually professional or interesting. The funny thing is - since most of them are not very interesting to neither the blogger nor the reader it is no surprise that most of them disappear after a while. Its probably not really surprising since nobody is reading these poker blogs anyways (including this one) - so why should I waste my time with writing texts about my poker life or stuff related if nobody shows interest?
Probably there is no reason for this and therefore I am confident that this pokerblog will last longer than most of the others since I love writing and I think most of the bloggers lack this skill. Nobody wants to write prolly stories about what is really going on and what their real figures are (understandably). On the other hand people love to see hands of the blogger, but that takes time. Overall this is pretty complicated and nobody really knows how to solve this problem. Probably you would need like a professional blogging team to keep up the interesting news, results and reviews - a graphic designer who makes the page look great and some kind of marketing that helps to maintain the page.
For me all this is not of any importance since I love writing, but nontheless I would like the idea to create something like outlined above. Will probably never happen though, since my real job is to much of importance to me.
Would be interesting to know which poker blog exists for the longest period. Anyways just a quick thought while finally loosing the qualifier :)
See ya around
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Search for ppl one can talk about the "job"
As in real life the need for good and helpful advice is needed in Poker. For me it seems less important to have someone who is necessarily better than me. The fact that someone is listening to your own thought is in my opinion already helpful.
It's like in a job. Sometimes you are not sure about wether your way of thinking is correct or not. By talking to someone things are getting clearer most of the time. Therefore I think I would like the idea to find someone who can identify with my goals for 2010 and is willing to spend some time with me in front of some MTTs. I am pretty sure I have some serious leaks and make from time to time awful decisions.
I can guarantee I will never make you responsible for my play. I am willing to look at your game as well (of course). You should be European and its probably helpful if you have a regular job as well, since I am not gonna hardcore grinding but play sometimes in the evening and most of the time regurlary on sundays (see goals for 2010).
I made the experience that it is always good to talk to someone. If you are interested leave a comment with an email of yours or some skype name.
I dont care about the level, but normally I play 5-20$ MTTs. Ok hope you guys enjoyed christmas and wish you a happy new year.
It's like in a job. Sometimes you are not sure about wether your way of thinking is correct or not. By talking to someone things are getting clearer most of the time. Therefore I think I would like the idea to find someone who can identify with my goals for 2010 and is willing to spend some time with me in front of some MTTs. I am pretty sure I have some serious leaks and make from time to time awful decisions.
I can guarantee I will never make you responsible for my play. I am willing to look at your game as well (of course). You should be European and its probably helpful if you have a regular job as well, since I am not gonna hardcore grinding but play sometimes in the evening and most of the time regurlary on sundays (see goals for 2010).
I made the experience that it is always good to talk to someone. If you are interested leave a comment with an email of yours or some skype name.
I dont care about the level, but normally I play 5-20$ MTTs. Ok hope you guys enjoyed christmas and wish you a happy new year.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Clear goals
Talked about that before, but wanted to write it down for me and myself and I. You should set yourself clear goals when heading into a new year. Of course you can differ between short term goals, mid term goals and long term goals, but you need to have a vision in order to find out what it takes to achieve these goals.
First goal for 2010 is becoming a manager in my company. I know that I have to continue the good work from 2009 and I will easily accomplish my goal. My second goal is to earn more money. Thats probably more difficult to achieve, since the company will try to tell me that they need the money for revovering and restructering of the company. They hopefully don't forget that I am a vital part of it.
My major goal for 2009 was to find a job and when I finally found one to be reliable. That is something I want to take with me to the year 2010. People might tell you that it is nothing special to be reliable, but actually I always find myself in situations where I think: Damn, he/she is not reliable. Well sometimes my girlfriend thinks the same of me and I want to try to be more reliable in 2010 when it is about my relationship.
When it is about poker I struggled a lot the recent month. With the new job came new responsibilities, new schedules and new challenges. I did not figure out how to combine the two worlds of poker and job so far. For sure I will play less and less, which makes me sad on the one hand, but happy on the other hand. The greatest thing about a real job is that you don't need to worry about money (reliable source of income) - thats not the same with poker (unreliable source of income).
Therefore I decided to set myself clear goals. From today for the next 365 days I am not going to play anything besides MTTs and I mean exclusivly tournament MTTs with more than 180players (so no SnG MTTs). Will do it of course on Pokerstars. I assume that I will play two or three times a week like three or four selected tourneys. Mostly the Quarter Million, Daily THirty Grand and the 3$ Rebuy. Figured that I will spend per week 60 - 90$ in Buy Ins and will play up to twelve tourneys per week. Thake makes a total of 600+ tourneys for 2010 and estimated Buy-Ins of 4000-5000$.
Even it is kind of weird to say that, but I want to win at least on of these approx. 600 tourneys and make it three times to the FT. Sounds not much, but if it is the right win or FTs its more than enough to make decent money. Also I want to try to be one out of six times in the money. This is pretty conservative estiamtion for me, but I don't want to set the goals too high (also very important in poker and life).
The real challenge is not to play the 600 tourneys (easy do), but to not play anything else. I will try my best and post an update about this at the end of each month or if I win big.
Well and there is some personal goal for me in 2010. I am overall pretty unhappy with my health condition at all. I smoke (not much but I do), I eat a lot of unhealthy stuff and probably gained 5 - 7kg since I started my job (damn if you have money to get all the time some nice food for lunch or dinner) and I think I have high blood pressure (if you concered regarding poker? I am neither physically nor psychological attached to the game that much (like the first two years where everything was freaking exciting). Therefore I decided to change these things. Want to stop drinking Coke and stuff on a regular basis. Future drink of my choice will be water. Second I want to find myself a good sport to regain some strength. Third I want to smoke even less or not at all (hope that comes with the sport). Want to loose 5kg in 2010 (doable imo).
Wish you all a merry christmas and a happy new year!
Yours
First goal for 2010 is becoming a manager in my company. I know that I have to continue the good work from 2009 and I will easily accomplish my goal. My second goal is to earn more money. Thats probably more difficult to achieve, since the company will try to tell me that they need the money for revovering and restructering of the company. They hopefully don't forget that I am a vital part of it.
My major goal for 2009 was to find a job and when I finally found one to be reliable. That is something I want to take with me to the year 2010. People might tell you that it is nothing special to be reliable, but actually I always find myself in situations where I think: Damn, he/she is not reliable. Well sometimes my girlfriend thinks the same of me and I want to try to be more reliable in 2010 when it is about my relationship.
When it is about poker I struggled a lot the recent month. With the new job came new responsibilities, new schedules and new challenges. I did not figure out how to combine the two worlds of poker and job so far. For sure I will play less and less, which makes me sad on the one hand, but happy on the other hand. The greatest thing about a real job is that you don't need to worry about money (reliable source of income) - thats not the same with poker (unreliable source of income).
Therefore I decided to set myself clear goals. From today for the next 365 days I am not going to play anything besides MTTs and I mean exclusivly tournament MTTs with more than 180players (so no SnG MTTs). Will do it of course on Pokerstars. I assume that I will play two or three times a week like three or four selected tourneys. Mostly the Quarter Million, Daily THirty Grand and the 3$ Rebuy. Figured that I will spend per week 60 - 90$ in Buy Ins and will play up to twelve tourneys per week. Thake makes a total of 600+ tourneys for 2010 and estimated Buy-Ins of 4000-5000$.
Even it is kind of weird to say that, but I want to win at least on of these approx. 600 tourneys and make it three times to the FT. Sounds not much, but if it is the right win or FTs its more than enough to make decent money. Also I want to try to be one out of six times in the money. This is pretty conservative estiamtion for me, but I don't want to set the goals too high (also very important in poker and life).
The real challenge is not to play the 600 tourneys (easy do), but to not play anything else. I will try my best and post an update about this at the end of each month or if I win big.
Well and there is some personal goal for me in 2010. I am overall pretty unhappy with my health condition at all. I smoke (not much but I do), I eat a lot of unhealthy stuff and probably gained 5 - 7kg since I started my job (damn if you have money to get all the time some nice food for lunch or dinner) and I think I have high blood pressure (if you concered regarding poker? I am neither physically nor psychological attached to the game that much (like the first two years where everything was freaking exciting). Therefore I decided to change these things. Want to stop drinking Coke and stuff on a regular basis. Future drink of my choice will be water. Second I want to find myself a good sport to regain some strength. Third I want to smoke even less or not at all (hope that comes with the sport). Want to loose 5kg in 2010 (doable imo).
Wish you all a merry christmas and a happy new year!
Yours
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Of old and new - senseless post (attention!)
Really have nothing to blog about today. Just go to the Sauna and enjoy end of the work. At least should mention that I guess that Isildur1 is going down soon. Why? Because he desperately wants to loose his money. It seems it was just an ALL or nothing thing. He would not have stopped at 10 million nor at 20 million. He wanted world domination, but thats a goal to accomplish not so easy. I know how he thinks, but it will always end like this: total fail.
Chiren also seem to have fucked it up with Pokerstars. No need to be sad. I think this could be the beginning of an epic internet tv soap we can watch. Already ordered Nachos and Popcorn, since Chiren anounced that he will continue to live stream. Of course it brings him anyhow more subscriptions and more munies on youtube. Nonetheless I like his gang every day a bit more and keep interest in how everything will develop.
For me this is the parallel world I am part of. The fantastic crazy world of online poker. Who really cares about the big names in live poker? They are like an old western. From time to time you love to watch them and you have great respect for them, but they are not part of your daily business. Guess it is the same with live and online poker, where online poker represents "2012" (one of the worst popcorn movies ever I heard).
I am happy that I started this blog and hope I will write for a while. Weekends I will not write anything since I spend this time with my girl (Weekend basically means Fr. and Sat. since I always go back to where I work on Sunday). Also a thing you should never forget about the people that love you, respect and care about you.
Sorry for this senseless post, but really had no time to think about poker today. For the ones who care: Currently I play on Everest - which just gave me a new topic I will write about on friday.Selection of your poker room in contrast to selection of your job. But more about that on friday (tomorrow I go back to my gf since I have one day off at work - YAY!)
See ya
Chiren also seem to have fucked it up with Pokerstars. No need to be sad. I think this could be the beginning of an epic internet tv soap we can watch. Already ordered Nachos and Popcorn, since Chiren anounced that he will continue to live stream. Of course it brings him anyhow more subscriptions and more munies on youtube. Nonetheless I like his gang every day a bit more and keep interest in how everything will develop.
For me this is the parallel world I am part of. The fantastic crazy world of online poker. Who really cares about the big names in live poker? They are like an old western. From time to time you love to watch them and you have great respect for them, but they are not part of your daily business. Guess it is the same with live and online poker, where online poker represents "2012" (one of the worst popcorn movies ever I heard).
I am happy that I started this blog and hope I will write for a while. Weekends I will not write anything since I spend this time with my girl (Weekend basically means Fr. and Sat. since I always go back to where I work on Sunday). Also a thing you should never forget about the people that love you, respect and care about you.
Sorry for this senseless post, but really had no time to think about poker today. For the ones who care: Currently I play on Everest - which just gave me a new topic I will write about on friday.Selection of your poker room in contrast to selection of your job. But more about that on friday (tomorrow I go back to my gf since I have one day off at work - YAY!)
See ya
BRM for life
Read today an article on ESPN which makes my post for today. Think that pretty much sums it up. BRM for life. So many poker players have issues keeping their bankroll intact. Why? And what does it tell us about the player itself?
There exist possibly houndreds of diffrent player types. Rich players, poor players, good players, aggressive players, players which are able to mix their game, tournament players, intelligent players and so on. I could continue this list till I die. Most of these have one issue that brings them all together. Failed Bankroll Management.
Why do so many people have no control over their bankroll management. Well, there exist plenty of reasons for it and writing them all down would probably need as long as to write down the different types of players. Nonetheless I think most of them lack the ability to see the bigger picture. They see all this great graphs of good poker player, still they are unable to understand the story behind. I've seen many graphs of good players which documented a constant trend upwards. Such trends did not consist of 1000 or 5000 hands, but of 50000 hands or more.
The small stepbacks every player experiences are included in these graphs, but while the average player is unable to deal with them and lead to ignorance of BRM or tilting for the above player they represent just a little down in their overall way up.
This is fueled by stories about the legendary winnings of players like Isildur1 or Nicki Jedlicka who were able to jump through the levels and build huge bankrolls within the shortest amounts of time. Poeple think they can do it as well and especially considering that most of them never read a book about poker or even know about the basic math of online poker is just partly surprising.
It is these people who also think poker is an easy game, people just make career in life because of their networks and relations, and tend to whine about why they always loose in life. Nothing is earned easily in life and you can compare your bankroll to your reputation build in your job or in life generally. If you just started a job and you have a good run it does not necessarily mean that you can critizize your CEO. If you treated friends nice for a while it does not mean that you should expect that you based on the credit you built, you can do everything to use it up within a second without consequences.
You should always be aware of long term situations. You can either try to build up trust, reputation and credit within a short period and then think: I made it! Or you can built up all these things step by step. It might take a bit longer to achieve your goals then, but ask yourself: What's the better fundament?
Of course some people are that rich that they don't have to care, but I would say most of us have to. I think Galfond said in this article that for him it is a business decision to play the stakes of Isildur1, Ivey or Antonius and I fully agree with this point of view. Maybe Isildur1 does not care if he looses the money or not, because he is young, searches for the Adrenalin or else, but Galfond acts at least rational (Ivey, Antonius and others just already made their fortune).
You might win a big multi table tournament on Pokerstars, the same as you might get your company a big mandate. That does not save your bankroll from going busto (because you think you are the new Phil Hellmuth and start to play bigger stakes then you should) or being fired the next year, because you fucked it up on two other projects.
I love poker, but that does not mean that I don't see that I put my money into it and therefore make decisions that have a direct impact on my life. Because even I play with money I don't necessarily need, I win money that I can do great things with (like travelling, pay my deposit for the flat or having a nice dinner with my girl).
I play quite a lot in my free time, because I would not know how to better use my time. Shall I now deposit 50$ play NL25 and hope it works out? Then most likely I will loose it and play again? Because I want to play, but in order to play I need a bankroll. So I have two options. I either play and loose (probably 500$+ a year) or I play exactly the same amount of time, but at lower stakes and make 3K a year. 3K might be not very much in comparison to the amount of time I spent, but nonetheless its 3,5K more than if I would try the fast lane and loose 500$. If you constantly play above your roll, this is inevitable.
It took me probably until today to realize it and it remains a constant challenge to me and most of the players to accept and respect the importance of BRM. In poker and life.
P.S.: Sorry for the sometimes confusing texts, but I write it as it is in my head and I dont think to much about it. I just hope that here and there it will make you think as well about these problems ;)
There exist possibly houndreds of diffrent player types. Rich players, poor players, good players, aggressive players, players which are able to mix their game, tournament players, intelligent players and so on. I could continue this list till I die. Most of these have one issue that brings them all together. Failed Bankroll Management.
Why do so many people have no control over their bankroll management. Well, there exist plenty of reasons for it and writing them all down would probably need as long as to write down the different types of players. Nonetheless I think most of them lack the ability to see the bigger picture. They see all this great graphs of good poker player, still they are unable to understand the story behind. I've seen many graphs of good players which documented a constant trend upwards. Such trends did not consist of 1000 or 5000 hands, but of 50000 hands or more.
The small stepbacks every player experiences are included in these graphs, but while the average player is unable to deal with them and lead to ignorance of BRM or tilting for the above player they represent just a little down in their overall way up.
This is fueled by stories about the legendary winnings of players like Isildur1 or Nicki Jedlicka who were able to jump through the levels and build huge bankrolls within the shortest amounts of time. Poeple think they can do it as well and especially considering that most of them never read a book about poker or even know about the basic math of online poker is just partly surprising.
It is these people who also think poker is an easy game, people just make career in life because of their networks and relations, and tend to whine about why they always loose in life. Nothing is earned easily in life and you can compare your bankroll to your reputation build in your job or in life generally. If you just started a job and you have a good run it does not necessarily mean that you can critizize your CEO. If you treated friends nice for a while it does not mean that you should expect that you based on the credit you built, you can do everything to use it up within a second without consequences.
You should always be aware of long term situations. You can either try to build up trust, reputation and credit within a short period and then think: I made it! Or you can built up all these things step by step. It might take a bit longer to achieve your goals then, but ask yourself: What's the better fundament?
Of course some people are that rich that they don't have to care, but I would say most of us have to. I think Galfond said in this article that for him it is a business decision to play the stakes of Isildur1, Ivey or Antonius and I fully agree with this point of view. Maybe Isildur1 does not care if he looses the money or not, because he is young, searches for the Adrenalin or else, but Galfond acts at least rational (Ivey, Antonius and others just already made their fortune).
You might win a big multi table tournament on Pokerstars, the same as you might get your company a big mandate. That does not save your bankroll from going busto (because you think you are the new Phil Hellmuth and start to play bigger stakes then you should) or being fired the next year, because you fucked it up on two other projects.
I love poker, but that does not mean that I don't see that I put my money into it and therefore make decisions that have a direct impact on my life. Because even I play with money I don't necessarily need, I win money that I can do great things with (like travelling, pay my deposit for the flat or having a nice dinner with my girl).
I play quite a lot in my free time, because I would not know how to better use my time. Shall I now deposit 50$ play NL25 and hope it works out? Then most likely I will loose it and play again? Because I want to play, but in order to play I need a bankroll. So I have two options. I either play and loose (probably 500$+ a year) or I play exactly the same amount of time, but at lower stakes and make 3K a year. 3K might be not very much in comparison to the amount of time I spent, but nonetheless its 3,5K more than if I would try the fast lane and loose 500$. If you constantly play above your roll, this is inevitable.
It took me probably until today to realize it and it remains a constant challenge to me and most of the players to accept and respect the importance of BRM. In poker and life.
P.S.: Sorry for the sometimes confusing texts, but I write it as it is in my head and I dont think to much about it. I just hope that here and there it will make you think as well about these problems ;)
Monday, December 7, 2009
Rail, Railer, Railbird
These days one might wonder what some people do all day long. How about being a railbird? Both Isildur1 and Chiren80 attract literally thousands of railbirds whenever they play. What is the fascination of all this?
It's interesting to compare both cases since the motivation to watch one of them might be extremely diffrent. While Isildur1 plays high stakes it seems that people are simply amazed by the amounts Isildur1 is playing for. All the swings that he expierences leave the railbird astonished how much balls one person can have.
The case of Chiren80 seems to attract people one the one hand because they want to watch someone who was a Pro in something else before and on the other hand the Big Brother effect kicks in. Watching a normal person grinding, considering his background is like watching a B-Class movie actor coming to the Big Brother house. We get a little glimpse of whats the life of Chiren80 might be. It seems to satisfy the overall curiosity of a regular person.
But I don't want to think about the main protagonists, but the audience itself. How does one become a railbird? Why are people so eager to be part of this? What attracts them so much that they probably care less about things that are of real importance to them?
I will think about it point by point. Recently we can see a trend that all the pokernews sites really have something to write about. While they reported before about all the stuff you were also able to catch at a forum you were active at now every new day so many things happen in the poker universe. Since poker got so big over the years the need to be "informed" also grew within the community. Now you can read every day stories about new players that rise up and probably disappear. About how poker jurisdication changes and what Daniel Negreanu eats for breakfast.
In addition you have certain areas of madness like the 2p2 BBV. A sureal counterpart to the real world, where mad challenges happen and people go crazy about their "superstars". Of course it is well orchastred by the platforms who love to get this kind of attention for free. All this helped to create the railbird. It is like you read the celebrity news just for poker. You don't know why you waste your time with it, but you love it.
The great thing about poker is that you have plenty possibilities to interact with your stars. Even it is one of the most expensive games in the world no other sport offers you to the possibility to compete with the best. And of course this creates attention. No entry fees need to be paid. You can yell at your favourites who were maybe a year ago railbirds by themselves. Obviously this is an imagination supported by the platforms and indirectly created by the protagonists. Nonetheless it might be one reason while railbirds appear and love to be railbirds - even they don't win money or anything. You can not come closer to what you see as a real star.
I always wonder who these people are that railbird, count how often Chiren80 said: "Biacz, that's how we roll" or support their stars in the poker forums out there. Would be nice if I could get hold of a railbird who gives me an interview (have someone in mind already - might ask him).
One can state that the popularity of poker stars - espescially new breeded by the platforms creates new developments within online poker. Fascinating, disturbing and somehow not understandable at the same time. I would lie if I said I didn't watch Isildur1 or Chiren80, but nonetheless at some point I always loose interest, because if Isildur1 disappears - who cares? If Chiren80's gf does not show her boobs, why should I continue to watch a great entertainer play poker for hours? Simply makes no sense. In the end I can read the news, in the forums how everything ended and most likely I will find more than one related youtube video. Maybe I am not a railbird at all, but at least a rail is always worth a look.
It's interesting to compare both cases since the motivation to watch one of them might be extremely diffrent. While Isildur1 plays high stakes it seems that people are simply amazed by the amounts Isildur1 is playing for. All the swings that he expierences leave the railbird astonished how much balls one person can have.
The case of Chiren80 seems to attract people one the one hand because they want to watch someone who was a Pro in something else before and on the other hand the Big Brother effect kicks in. Watching a normal person grinding, considering his background is like watching a B-Class movie actor coming to the Big Brother house. We get a little glimpse of whats the life of Chiren80 might be. It seems to satisfy the overall curiosity of a regular person.
But I don't want to think about the main protagonists, but the audience itself. How does one become a railbird? Why are people so eager to be part of this? What attracts them so much that they probably care less about things that are of real importance to them?
I will think about it point by point. Recently we can see a trend that all the pokernews sites really have something to write about. While they reported before about all the stuff you were also able to catch at a forum you were active at now every new day so many things happen in the poker universe. Since poker got so big over the years the need to be "informed" also grew within the community. Now you can read every day stories about new players that rise up and probably disappear. About how poker jurisdication changes and what Daniel Negreanu eats for breakfast.
In addition you have certain areas of madness like the 2p2 BBV. A sureal counterpart to the real world, where mad challenges happen and people go crazy about their "superstars". Of course it is well orchastred by the platforms who love to get this kind of attention for free. All this helped to create the railbird. It is like you read the celebrity news just for poker. You don't know why you waste your time with it, but you love it.
The great thing about poker is that you have plenty possibilities to interact with your stars. Even it is one of the most expensive games in the world no other sport offers you to the possibility to compete with the best. And of course this creates attention. No entry fees need to be paid. You can yell at your favourites who were maybe a year ago railbirds by themselves. Obviously this is an imagination supported by the platforms and indirectly created by the protagonists. Nonetheless it might be one reason while railbirds appear and love to be railbirds - even they don't win money or anything. You can not come closer to what you see as a real star.
I always wonder who these people are that railbird, count how often Chiren80 said: "Biacz, that's how we roll" or support their stars in the poker forums out there. Would be nice if I could get hold of a railbird who gives me an interview (have someone in mind already - might ask him).
One can state that the popularity of poker stars - espescially new breeded by the platforms creates new developments within online poker. Fascinating, disturbing and somehow not understandable at the same time. I would lie if I said I didn't watch Isildur1 or Chiren80, but nonetheless at some point I always loose interest, because if Isildur1 disappears - who cares? If Chiren80's gf does not show her boobs, why should I continue to watch a great entertainer play poker for hours? Simply makes no sense. In the end I can read the news, in the forums how everything ended and most likely I will find more than one related youtube video. Maybe I am not a railbird at all, but at least a rail is always worth a look.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
It's all a game
After the very "positive" feedback I recieved about my first arcticle I am full of motivation to continue. This feedback included statements like pathetic, bad written and many more critics. I was really thinking about writing in german since there exists obviously a gab between what I want to express and what people read. But as in poker I simply ignore these comments and continue. It's all a game!
I heard this saying today at Chiren's video stream and I was comparing this to how I see my life. Actually I even made it part of a discussion I had with a girl back home. So is it all a game? Poker, relationships, work or life itself? My current answer would be YES. It's all a game - no need to be to serious about everything in life. Let me try to further elaborate my thoughts on this.
People often ask me how I like my work and if it is not exhausting. I always assure them that the work is part of my good mood. Of course it is, otherwise I should seriously consider to quit my job, shouldn't I? Then people ask me about the why. I then tell them, because I don't take things too serious. Often I look into confused faces and people reply if you don't need to be focused and serious about work. Now its about me to look confused. Then I clarify my point. To see things as a game does not mean that you are not interested to be a good player and make your way to the top. Of course this can include to be serious and be responsible. People often think these things do not go very well along with each other. I don't think so.
When I play poker it's most of the time for fun. Nonetheless I don't want to be one of these funny clowns to sit down and loose their money. What an attitude is this anyways. I want to be good at what I do. One could say I am pretty competitive and I am, but I can loose. I don't like to loose, but it's obvious that you can't always win. Nonetheless I enjoy playing poker even I loose sometimes.
It is the same with work and many things I do in my life. Sometimes I put everything I have into something. Still it is not enough. Others might not like what I did or they say I didn't get the point. Well, shit happens. Shall I feel like a douche bag now? I don't think so. Of course I accept critics, but some things can't be changed within hours. You might need some time to fix it.
Seeing my job as a game is so easy. I have a particular problem and need to solve it. Let's get it on. I am annoyed by people telling me - you could do your living with poker. Maybe I really could, but sitting 8 hours in front of my computer, playing poker all day long, study my hands and thinking about how to improve my game simply is not how I imagine my life to be. Don't get me wrong - I love poker, but do I want to spend the rest of my life playing one game and earning my living with it. For sure not! Way to boring. Do I want to be a person that makes his way through a pascours of living human beens, act strategic, solve problems, take responsibility and lead my clan to total vicotry - that sounds awesome to me.
When I told this to the girl I had the discussion with she asked: "What's with a palestinian who just lost all his family in an air strike?". Well of course this idea is more appropriate to our society and people who are bored of work and all that. Still we got both to the conclusion that in order to continue your life you need to find an explanation for all that. We are damn little in comparison to whats outside of this earth, our thinking and the reach we have. How can you overcome such a situation? Simply if you put it in some perspective. Game over for your family. Of course you can commit suicide or bomb yourself in Isreal. Will that make anything better? Will it make you feel better? No. Instead you can say to yourself. Well, they are gone, but I believe they wait somewhere for me. I continue to go on and do the unthinkable. I rise up on my feet again, try to make a diffrence and when the game is over for me. What can I loose?
We both agreed that this is a pretty drastic thought and maybe a bit to far from reality. In some parts of the world people physically fight for their survival. That is not a fucking game it is fucking real. The game thing is more applicable to people who psycholgical struggle, because they don't see an overall sense. I went even further and said, maybe it's just something that works for me. I compared it to love. When you find it you know it's the right thing for you. Seeing everything as a game is the right thing for me. Is it the right thing for you?
I heard this saying today at Chiren's video stream and I was comparing this to how I see my life. Actually I even made it part of a discussion I had with a girl back home. So is it all a game? Poker, relationships, work or life itself? My current answer would be YES. It's all a game - no need to be to serious about everything in life. Let me try to further elaborate my thoughts on this.
People often ask me how I like my work and if it is not exhausting. I always assure them that the work is part of my good mood. Of course it is, otherwise I should seriously consider to quit my job, shouldn't I? Then people ask me about the why. I then tell them, because I don't take things too serious. Often I look into confused faces and people reply if you don't need to be focused and serious about work. Now its about me to look confused. Then I clarify my point. To see things as a game does not mean that you are not interested to be a good player and make your way to the top. Of course this can include to be serious and be responsible. People often think these things do not go very well along with each other. I don't think so.
When I play poker it's most of the time for fun. Nonetheless I don't want to be one of these funny clowns to sit down and loose their money. What an attitude is this anyways. I want to be good at what I do. One could say I am pretty competitive and I am, but I can loose. I don't like to loose, but it's obvious that you can't always win. Nonetheless I enjoy playing poker even I loose sometimes.
It is the same with work and many things I do in my life. Sometimes I put everything I have into something. Still it is not enough. Others might not like what I did or they say I didn't get the point. Well, shit happens. Shall I feel like a douche bag now? I don't think so. Of course I accept critics, but some things can't be changed within hours. You might need some time to fix it.
Seeing my job as a game is so easy. I have a particular problem and need to solve it. Let's get it on. I am annoyed by people telling me - you could do your living with poker. Maybe I really could, but sitting 8 hours in front of my computer, playing poker all day long, study my hands and thinking about how to improve my game simply is not how I imagine my life to be. Don't get me wrong - I love poker, but do I want to spend the rest of my life playing one game and earning my living with it. For sure not! Way to boring. Do I want to be a person that makes his way through a pascours of living human beens, act strategic, solve problems, take responsibility and lead my clan to total vicotry - that sounds awesome to me.
When I told this to the girl I had the discussion with she asked: "What's with a palestinian who just lost all his family in an air strike?". Well of course this idea is more appropriate to our society and people who are bored of work and all that. Still we got both to the conclusion that in order to continue your life you need to find an explanation for all that. We are damn little in comparison to whats outside of this earth, our thinking and the reach we have. How can you overcome such a situation? Simply if you put it in some perspective. Game over for your family. Of course you can commit suicide or bomb yourself in Isreal. Will that make anything better? Will it make you feel better? No. Instead you can say to yourself. Well, they are gone, but I believe they wait somewhere for me. I continue to go on and do the unthinkable. I rise up on my feet again, try to make a diffrence and when the game is over for me. What can I loose?
We both agreed that this is a pretty drastic thought and maybe a bit to far from reality. In some parts of the world people physically fight for their survival. That is not a fucking game it is fucking real. The game thing is more applicable to people who psycholgical struggle, because they don't see an overall sense. I went even further and said, maybe it's just something that works for me. I compared it to love. When you find it you know it's the right thing for you. Seeing everything as a game is the right thing for me. Is it the right thing for you?
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